Monday, February 08, 2010

Trying to Get Back in the Saddle

This has not been a planned hiatus from blogging. I'm tempted to say something trite like "It just happened," but I think I'm smart enough to realize that nothing "just happens." It just seems that way because we're rarely aware of all the myriad influences on our behavior.

To my conscious perception, it appears that the immediate instrumental cause of my absence from this corner of cyberspace is found in the demands of "real" life. Parish ministry is demanding, and certainly "outranks" my blogging activity. I have a wife, and three grown children (two of whom live a mere 120 miles away with their spouses), and a 14-month old granddaughter who provides more than ample incentive to escape to Chicago during the day-and-a-half of time each week which I can in some sense consider "free." I'm also aware that I've growth slothful in the intellectual and spiritual discipline of reading. Sure, I guess you could say I get a lot of reading done by "surfing the 'net," and much of that reading is quite valuable. But I need to read ... you know ... actual books, if I don't want to stagnate and become all self-absorbed--indeed, if I want to have anything of substance to post on places like this blog. And for those reasons, I've been devoting more time to reading lately.

When people perfunctorily ask me, "How are you?", I often respond along the lines of "There's nothing wrong in my life that about eight more hours in a day wouldn't fix." I really do envy those who can get by on just a token amount of sleep each night. I'm just not one of them. And so part of my absence from blogging can be explained by decisions I make about spending time in ministry, spending time with family, and spending time just resting and "re-creating." It's foolish to demand so many golden eggs that you kills the goose that lays them.

So ... I will be back, and sooner than later, I think. Just last week I attended a conference at which I was reminded by many that what I do here really is a ministry, indeed, a calling. I have not lost my sense of vocation. An unplanned abandonment of a discretionary activity always raises the question whether that particularly activity has just run its course, had its day. I don't have that sense about my blogging. There may come a time to move on. It's happened to others much more prominent than I am. But I don't think that time is here yet.

Stay tuned.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear Fr. Dan:

I, for one, am staying tuned. I have missed reading your thoughts, and I look forward to your sharing them again. I most certainly pray that you will not come to the conclusion that your blog is no longer relevant, because it is INDEED relevant.

Respectfully yours,

Francie+

Joe said...

Keep on keeping on! I look forward to your next substantive post.

God's peace.

Joe Roberts <><
(Cotton Country Anglican)

Mousie and Christy's Mommy said...

I will be waiting with eager anticipation! It has been so disheartening to click on your blog and find...nothing! Welcome back!!!

Anonymous said...

Dan:

You are right to question the place and value of blogging in the bigger picture of Christian discipleship. I think the most valuable gift we in the clerical order have to give is time. The over-use of electronic communication and the substitution of the immediate for the profound (and often, the trival for the substantive) is eroding our ability to be truly available to God, our neighbor and (I firmly believe) the self.

I deeply value your thoughts and your gifts; this post causes one to think, and gives me another reason to esteem you.

Faithfully in Christ,

Brandon+